Chapter 6

Strength

Precious Mettle

In the Summer 2014 issue of Bitch magazine, I wrote about a stereotype that both buoys and burdens Black women.1 With shades of Sapphire’s hardness, the myth embodies the idea of African American women as perpetually tough and uniquely indestructible.

Strong. Black. Woman.

The words fit together like Blue Magic, sizzling hot combs, and Sunday afternoon.

We are the fighters and the women who don’t take shit from no man. We are the sassy women with the sharp tongues and hands firmly on our hips. We are the ride-or-die chicks. We are the women who have, like Sojourner Truth, “plowed and planted and gathered into barns and no man could head me.” We are the mothers who make a way out of no way. On TV, we are the no-nonsense police chiefs and judges. We are the First Ladies with the impressive biceps.

But there is a dirty side to the perceived uncommon strength of Black women. Ultimately, the “strong Black woman” stereotype is an albatross, at odds with African American women’s very survival. Because, according to pop culture and media, we are also the workhorses. We are the cold, overeducated, career-obsessed sisters who will never marry. We are the indefatigable mamas who don’t need help, the castrating harpies. We are the brawling Worldstar “hood rats.” We are the women and girls who are unrapeable, whom no one need worry about when we go missing. We are the scary bogeywomen on America’s doorstep in the middle of the night. And, too often, we are the women who dare not give in to our vulnerability, even as we’re breaking, emotionally and physically.

Stories of Black families are filled with sacrificing ma’dears and mamas, whose ability to nurture and work was seemingly limitless. Too often Black families lose sight of these women as human beings, and in efforts to emulate them, Black women dash their own health and well-being on the rocks. They come to believe, to their detriment, that preternatural strength means that Black women can and should bear any physical and emotional burden without complaint.

Of course, Black women’s strength is also blamed for the Black marriage crisis. Singer Robin Thicke shared more unasked-for advice in a late 2011 Essence article, when he told Black women to take better care of their men: “Maybe you’re being too stubborn. Maybe you’re not saying you’re sorry. You have to take good care of him, too. You have to give love to get love.”2 Maybe we’re being too damned strong for our own good. The consensus seems to be that Black women are too tough to love or be loved.

Still, many women find undeniable truth, liberation, and empowerment in the “strong Black woman” meme. Heidi Renée Lewis says, “There are times when I assume that Black woman resilience—the kind that allows you to face racism and sexism and heterosexism on a daily basis and still maintain your sanity and your health. I love that part of the strength that Black women have had to have. That strength is real.”

Black (Woman) Power

Sixty-year-old Deborah Latham-White remembers embracing the idea of Black female strength as a teen at the dawn of the Black Power movement.4 “Black women were disrupting American beauty culture. We were starting to wear our hair natural as a political statement of acceptance and self-love.” But the currency of cultural strength wasn’t just halos of kinky hair and Afro-chic sartorial tastes. “We were also throwing up our fists in a sign of solidarity with the Black Power movement, as well as being actively engaged in struggle,” she says. Who would not want to be Angela Davis, Fannie Lou Hamer, Ruby Dee, Audre Lorde, Shirley Chisholm?

Today, loving profiles of former First Lady Michelle Obama often focus on her personal and professional strength, particularly her exceptional education and career achievements, her egalitarian marriage, and her athleticism. An online search for “Michelle Obama” and “strong” reveals a host of images with America’s former First Lady flexing her impressively toned biceps. The former FLOTUS is positioned as a “strong Black woman,” both literally and figuratively, making her a modern role model and icon not just to other Black women and girls but to other Americans as well.

Black women look to strong female figures for motivation. They evoke the historical strength of their foremothers to tell each other “You can do it.” Adrianne Traylor says she is moved by the strength of her late grandmother, a devoutly religious rural Texan who farmed alongside her husband while working other jobs and raising nine children.5 She left school after the eighth grade, but seven of her children would go on to receive college degrees. “Her example transferred a desire for aspiration and achievement to succeeding generations. She is the embodiment of the best of what ‘strong Black woman’ can mean.”

Blogger Erika Nicole Kendall has found many Black women unwilling to let go of the idea of strength as part of their identity. When she challenges the myth, it is nearly always met with debate.

“[Some women say,] ‘I actually take pride in being strong, why would you want to take that from me?’”

The key, Kendall says, is realizing “I am strong and I am powerful, but I am also vulnerable and I am also able to break and because of that I should be very careful with myself and expect the people around me to be careful with me as well—to support me, help me, provide encouragement, and provide some kind of relief.”

And that is the problem—at least part of it. It is easy to forget that people who are strong need support and relief. It is sometimes depressingly hard for even Black women to remember that they are not, indeed, superwomen.

“I’ve had to be a strong Black woman since I was seven,” Fatima Thomas* says, “Even when I didn’t want to be, I’ve always had to be.6

“I had a mom who was an alcoholic. She was on drugs. She was left by her husband and she checked out of life. She partied and had fun. I had to take care of my siblings—I mean feeding, getting [them] dressed for school, the whole situation. I’ve always been that.”

For Fatima, surviving her childhood required remarkable strength. But one can survive and still be in pain, broken. A survivor can still need help.

One night, Fatima found herself perched in the middle of a highway wearing all black—a strong girl at the end of her rope. “I tried to commit suicide. I remember sitting in the middle of the highway just kind of daring something to hit me so that I wouldn’t have to live anymore. I’m so young that I don’t realize that if you’re sitting in the middle of the highway, neither side is going to hit you. I sat in the middle of the highway, so traffic is veering around me. I’m like, ‘Okay, I guess I’ll go home and deal with that again.’”

She tried again in college. “I took every pill between my room and my cheating boyfriend’s dorm room. Every pill I could find, I took it and I lived through it—barely, but I did. I lived through it. Years later, I had a botched abortion and I lived through that. I was on life support. It seemed like no matter what, God wasn’t going to let me die, so I had to endure stuff.

“Within the last three or four years, I have had walking pneumonia three times. I’ve had kidney stones. I’m convinced I have had depression, even though I haven’t been diagnosed. I thoroughly attribute all that to strong Black womanhood.

“I’m convinced that because [Black women] persevere and make it through, nobody’s paying attention to what we’re going through when it’s happening. I don’t think the idea of the strong Black woman is just a burden, I think it is killing us.

“Once you become a mother, you will survive for that kid. If you love that kid, and especially if you love that kid more than you love yourself, it doesn’t matter what it takes. There have been days where, except for getting my children fed and dressed and out the door, I was not out of the bed. My children didn’t even realize it, because while they were gone, I was in the bed, depressed, on and off sleep, couldn’t get up. Here comes the bus. I drag myself out of the bed, go cook dinner, get back in the bed.

“There are moments when everything around here’s going good. I’m getting awards. I’m getting praise. And I feel like, ‘When are they going to realize I’m a complete phony?’ I just want to go back to bed. I don’t want to do this because what if I’m not strong? What if I want to cry? What if I want to admit that things hurt? Who do I admit that to? When you’ve been so strong so long, even when you do break down and someone is there, you’re on the floor saying, ‘Somebody help me’ and they’ll be like, ‘Oh, girl, get up. You got this.’ No I don’t. That’s why I’m on the floor … I don’t got this.”

Built Black Girl Tough

Lisa Patton, fifty, says, “When people perceive you as the strong Black woman, they don’t think of you as being a complete human being. They think that you don’t have vulnerabilities, that you don’t hurt, you just kind of soldier on. Everyone expects that out of you. It is what society expects out of you. It is what your family has basically raised you to be, because in many African American families, the girls are raised to basically do what they need to do.”8

Deborah Latham-White agrees that Black women often pass down the idea of strength at all costs to younger generations out of a love that is perhaps misguided.

“Lots of times, our own mothers get that geared up in their heads: ‘I’ve got to make my daughter tough, because it’s a tough world out there.’”

For centuries, the notion of Black female strength has also been used to challenge our humanity and femininity. Long after the era of the cult of true womanhood, by the age of the Equal Rights Amendment, when middle-class White women fought to come down off the pedestal of idealized womanhood and progressive folks celebrated the strength of various marginalized peoples, Black women were still seen as uniquely tough.

“Black Woman Power,” an interesting but flawed article by second-wave feminist Caroline Bird in the March 10, 1969, issue of New York magazine, deems Black women capable and independent (read: strong) by necessity.9 Black women fight, Bird says, because they have no one to fight for them, unlike women with proximity to White, patriarchal power. “Whatever the reasons, the fact is that Negro women in America have escaped some of the psyche-crippling education of white girls. They haven’t been carefully taught how not to fight. On the contrary, some of them fight hard and develop a personal style of fighting that suggests that ‘grace under pressure’ which is supposed to be the essence of courage.”

Bird’s piece spins allegedly distinctive Black female strength as a powerful weapon, giving African American women an edge over White women and Black men—a dubious message. It also paints Black women as possessing a durability that is nearly inhuman. For instance, Bird asserts that the “absence of Negro fathers hurts growing boys more than girls, and saved Negro girls from some of the dissatisfactions with their sex that have brought many white women to psychoanalysis.” Abandoning Black girls does not hurt them, this view suggests; instead, it improbably makes them stronger. Bird also pits Black female achievement against Black male success (“Without half trying, Negro women are better able than their men to cope”), unintentionally illustrating the double bind that strong Black women face: in a society where strength and power are reserved for White people and men most of all, Black women are always at the precipice of over-stepping their bounds.

Society remains uneasy with female strength of any stripe and still prefers and champions delicate damsels—an outdated sentiment that limits all women. But because the damsel’s face is still viewed as unequivocally White and female, it is a particular problem for Black women. As long as vulnerability and softness are the basis for acceptable femininity (and acceptable femininity is a requirement for a woman’s life to have value), women who are perpetually framed because of their race as supernaturally indestructible will not be viewed with regard.

This may be why we so rarely see the Black women who are victims of violence on true-crime television, despite the fact that Black women are more likely to be victims of sexual violence and domestic homicidal violence. Instead, we overwhelmingly see young White women who fit the picture of idealized true womanhood (journalist Gwen Ifill coined the phrase “missing white woman syndrome” to describe this disparate media attention).10 Young, blond Natalee Holloway and mommy-to-be Laci Peterson are damsels, beneficiaries of sympathetic national media attention and a drive for justice; Tamika Huston and Latoyia Figueroa, Black women who disappeared under identical circumstances, are not.

Sheri Parks, an associate professor at the University of Maryland, described the significance of this reporting bias in a 2006 appearance on CNN, explaining that stories about missing women capture the national attention, “uniting people to save a soul.” The woman “becomes a symbol, and if we save her for a few days, we’re okay.”11 If lack of media coverage is any indication, the media does not believe strong Black women need saving.

But lack of empathy for Black women has other serious implications. When Staten Island mother Glenda Moore’s car became submerged by water during Hurricane Sandy in 2012, she was able to free her children, little boys ages two and four, from their car seats only to have the rushing water sweep them away. When the distraught Moore attempted to garner help from her neighbors—to simply convince them to call 911—she found only closed doors. Said one neighbor, before shutting the door in Moore’s face, “I don’t know you.”12

In response to news coverage of the tragedy, a commenter at the Christian Post defended Moore’s neighbors, asking “How many people are going to let a muscular, screaming Black woman into their house? How would you know whether it was just a trick and you were about to be the victim of home invasion, robbery, rape…. That is the problem, you just don’t know.”13

Lest this comment sound like just your average internet troll, consider what happened when nineteen-year-old Renisha McBride knocked on Theodore Wafer’s door in the early morning of November 2, 2013. McBride was seeking help at Wafer’s suburban Detroit home after a car accident, but instead of receiving aid she was shot in the face.14

On her blog, writer DJ Freedom Fighter responded to the transformation of five-foot-three-inch, 130-pound Moore from distraught mother to burly, duplicitous beast, calling it “optic Whiteness.”15 The blogger could also have been discussing Renisha McBride. Optic Whiteness allowed Moore’s neighbor (and Wafer) to “permissibly deny her help that he would have certainly offered to someone who embodies a picturesque version of the standards of womanhood and motherhood.”

Following the Moore and McBride tragedies, a 2013 article in Time asked “Why are Black women seen as more threatening, more masculine and less in need of help?”16 UCLA historian Sarah Haley answered, “Black women have been seen as different than Black men, certainly, but they have not always been seen as women either; to be a woman is to be seen as deserving of protection, and Black women are not always seen that way.”

If public attention is any indicator, though, Black women are seen as unworthy faces of violence against women and Black people. Couple stereotypes about Black women’s hardness with the historic devaluing of women and it explains why even amid a national war against violence on Black bodies, Black femmes are often forgotten.

Say Her Name

In the early hours of March 13, 2020, officers executed a search warrant on the home of twenty-six-year-old Breonna Taylor, a young Black medical worker in Louisville. Authorities believed that an ex-boyfriend, who was under police investigation, may have used the house to receive drugs. Taylor and her current boyfriend Kenneth Walker were roused from their bed by a battering ram pounding their door. The couple feared intruders. As the door gave way, Walker shot once from a licensed gun, wounding one officer. Police fired several rounds, hitting Taylor five times. She did not receive medical attention for twenty minutes.

In a recorded call to 911, Walker says, “I don’t know what’s happening. Someone kicked in the door and shot my girlfriend.”

Breonna Taylor was killed. No drugs were found at her home.17

Like Black men and boys, Black women and girls are victims of a racist police state.

Black women are disproportionately targeted by law enforcement. According to the African American Policy Forum (AAPF), “in New York City—one of the jurisdictions with the most extensive data collection on police stops—the rates of racial disparities in stops, frisks, and arrests are identical for Black men and Black women.”18

Police violence is commonly defined in ways that obscure harm to Black women, including sexual and gender-based abuse, like that committed by Daniel Holtzclaw, a former Oklahoma City Police Department officer convicted in 2015 on multiple counts of rape, sexual battery, forcible oral sodomy, and other sexual charges.19 All of Holtzclaw’s suspected victims were Black women, chosen for the vulnerability caused by their race, class, and former involvement with law enforcement.20 According to a report on anti-transgender violence, more than a third of Black trans women who interact with law enforcement are assumed by police to be sex workers, leading to harassment, abuse, and mistreatment.21

Black women are disproportionately killed by law enforcement, though they are routinely ignored in data about police killings. Black women slain by law enforcement are not likely to receive justice. The New York Times reports that nearly fifty Black women have been killed by police since 2015.22 There have been charges in only two cases. One officer was acquitted. One case remained pending as of September 2020. No one was charged for killing Breonna Taylor, though a grand jury did indict a detective involved in her shooting for endangering Taylor’s neighbors whose apartment was hit by bullets that missed their target.23

Mike Brown. Trayvon Martin. Eric Garner. Their unconscionable deaths provoked national outcry—a movement. Atatiana Jefferson. Pamela Turner. Yvette Smith. Aiyana Stanley-Jones.24 Their names and stories dissolved from public consciousness like paper in the rain. It seemed, at first, that this would also be Breonna Taylor’s fate. It took the killing of George Floyd, almost two months later, to galvanize national attention and ignite a summer of protest, including demands for #JusticeforBreonna.

According to the AAPF, “Black women who are profiled, beaten, sexually assaulted, and killed by law enforcement officials are conspicuously absent from this frame even when their experiences are identical. When their experiences with police violence are distinct—uniquely informed by race, gender, gender identity, and sexual orientation—Black women remain invisible.”25

In 2014, the organization launched #SayHerName, a campaign designed to “shed light on Black women’s experiences of police violence in an effort to support a gender-inclusive approach to racial justice that centers all Black lives equally.”26

Black women are erased from discourse and demonstrations around state violence, even as they are leading the fight for justice from law enforcement. It was three Black women—Alicia Garza, Patrisse Cullors, and Opal Tometi—who founded Black Lives Matter in 2013, following the acquittal of George Zimmerman in the killing of Trayvon Martin.27 And in the summer of 2020, when millions of people worldwide took to the streets to protest the killings of George Floyd and Breonna Taylor, Black women were often at the forefront of the revolution—lending their strength to the movement, while remaining vulnerable and unprotected themselves.

Nineteen-year-old Oluwatoyin Salau protested in her hometown of Tallahassee, Florida. She organized in the memory of George Floyd and Tony McDade—a Black transgender man who was killed by a Tallahassee police officer. There is a photo of Toyin, as she was known, flanked by fellow Black Lives Matter activists in front of the Tallahassee Police Department.28 Her face is contorted with passion. Behind her, signs read “No Justice. No Peace.” A month after the photo was taken, Salau tweeted about being sexually assaulted by a man who had offered her a ride. Then she went missing.29

In the wake of her disappearance, a video of Salau, giving one of her impassioned speeches, was shared widely on Twitter. “Right now, our lives matter, Black lives matter … We are doing this for our brothers and our sisters who got shot, but we are doing this for every Black person.”

Oluwatoyin Salau’s body would be found along with the body of another woman—seventy-five-year-old Victoria Sims—in a home on Tallahassee’s southeast side. The women had been murdered.

In news coverage following her death, those who knew Salau remembered how she would often recite the names of Black victims of police violence.

“I don’t want their names gone in vain,” she said.

Say her name—Oluwatoyin Salau.

Finding the Balance

Heidi Renée Lewis says, “I am raising a daughter. The reality is, a certain kind of strength will be required for her to make it through this life with her sanity and health—to not let racism and sexism kill her. But I have to be very careful about telling her to be strong, because I also want her to be fully human.”

Sofia Quintero, creator of the Feminist Love Project, a tele-summit on feminism and love, concurs, saying that there are times when she embraces the idea of strong Black womanhood “as a way to practice resiliency and protect myself. But the flip side is that it allows little space for me to be vulnerable, seek support, and otherwise be fully human.”31

And that is what the enduring meme of the “strong Black woman” obscures: it makes it harder for others to see Black women as complex beings. Worse, the myth of Black women’s extraordinary strength makes it difficult for Black women to see themselves. The most radical thing African American women can do is to throw off the shackles forged by the strong Black woman meme and regain a full and complex humanity that allows them to be capable, strong, and independent but also to be carried and cared for. Allowing for physical and emotional vulnerability is not weakness; it is humanness. More, it is the revolutionary act in the face of a society eager to mold Black women into hard, unbreakable things.

“Understanding that being strong and being the only one to manage everything—we do that out of necessity and maybe we do want to be proud of that,” Erika Nicole Kendall says. “But we have to monitor what we allow that to mean in terms of how we care for ourselves. It’s not, ‘Oh, I can handle anything so I’m going to handle everything.’ It’s, ‘I can do this, but I also need to be realistic about how it’s going to affect me in the end and I need to plan and prepare for that.’”

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