140 Henrik Marstal
as good a cellist as he is. Kasper seemed to regard the recording of
my contributions as a kind of necessary, but dull work. And, as we
know, uncertainty breeds more uncertainty and is reected back by
the surroundings – as is the case with condence. So I sometimes felt
that I was the only one responsible for fullling the artistic vision
of Where Did Nora Go, which created a sense of loneliness in me.
I wonder if this would have been the case, had I been a male musician
myself, or had Kasper and Henrik been female producers.
Because the collaboration between Lössl, Rasmussen, and myself included
an EP and two albums in the course of around two years, there was a
strong sense of artistic development at stake. However, Lössl notes that
this development made the second album, Shimmer, stand out as different
in many respects:
For me, the success of the EP and the debut album had led to a higher
degree of relying on my own skills. Where Henrik until now had co-
written a lot of the musical material, I wanted to include more songs
on the second album written by myself. Moreover, I developed clearer
ideas of how I wanted the music to evolve. This meant that Henrik
was less involved in the creation of the music. Moreover, since the
days of the EP, he had co-founded a new project, the dreampop duo
marstal:lidell, in which he did contributed to all the songwriting him-
self. For these reasons, perhaps, he seemed to be less enthusiastic
about the whole project as a producer.
Another clash of interests occurred, when I proclaimed that I wanted
neither bass nor drums to be part of the new album, knowing that Hen-
rik is primarily a bass player and Kasper primarily a drummer. This
kind of decision-making on behalf of my own artistic vision had not
been possible on the debut album, but I knew that it was what I wanted
for now. Kasper initially profoundly opposed the idea, but after heavy
debating he accepted it. In all fairness, it should be noted that he and
Henrik did not use, though, any homosocial power against the idea or
refer to democratic rules by wanting to let the majority decide.
There is another thing which should be mentioned: During the mak-
ing of the album, I unknowingly became pregnant, a fact which com-
pletely turned my world – and my hormones – around. My composure,
which I always had been able to control, crumbled on several occa-
sions, and emotions soared. So we had several controversies due to the
fact that I had more condence in speaking my mind, but at the same
time did not have the same emotional control as before and therefore
tended to be quite sensitive. Needless to say, this development put
gender dierences in a new light, and there were even occasions were
I left the studio crying, feeling unheard, overlooked and belittled.
In combination with Lössl’s quite intimate considerations, I will add
that the process of recording Shimmer ironically resembled the stiffened
dynamics between Nora and Helmer: her as the one striving for being